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June 8th, 2010

Some more pics of our new addition.

Luna and her Mummy

Luna and her Family

Luna and her Daddy

Luna and her Poppy

June 1st, 2010

Please say hello to our new little daughter and sister to Indi, Lilly and Eli.

Luna Claire Bowker - just 12 hours old

May 4th, 2010

It has been a long time between diary entries for us. Indi and Eli keep us going non stop, forcing us to slow down and love these moments that are happening now.

Eli and his Mum at a YAMS fund raising function - Eli has a redback spider on his nose

Eli and his Dad at the same YAMS fund raising function

January 16th, 2010

The most wonderful news of late is that the little human inside Nellie's tummy is a little girl.

January 11th, 2010

Life is indeed wonderful... except that both of our lovely chookies died recently.

Eli loves his 3 new chookies

December 31st, 2009

Happy New Year everybody.

The storm hit at about 10pm and we loved it after all the recent hot weather

November 19th, 2009

Summer has arrived early. Every time we take Eli to the beach, he heads straight for the water - rain hail or shine. Now it is finally shining and the boy is in his element.

Happy Boy

Smashing, Splashing Boy

November 18th, 2009

Hello everyone. I have to apologise for our silence. We have been without internet access since we returned from New Zealand, and have not really rushed to get it going again.

All is good in our home. Indi is getting taller, Eli is weeing in the proper toilet - at just 18 months. He is very proud of himself and wee wee are equally proud of him. His purpose in life is to be a reflection of us and make us look good afterall. Or we can love him and he can grow and blossom into whatever he chooses. Either way works for us??!!!!

Nellie is now 10 weeks pregnant and happily vomitting every day. The new bub is due on Indi's birthday in June.

This gives Eli and I a small window to fly to England and get out of Mum's hair for a couple of weeks. Time will be short but we would love to meet any friends of our Lilly. I am not sure how to organise how to meet people, so any suggestions are most welcome. Approximate dates are Jan 20 to Feb 7, 2010.

August 25th, 2009

The Sweetest Resting Place

August 22nd, 2009

Our New Zealand holiday is almost at an end. We have had a wonderful time on the South Island, experiencing the most stunning places each day. The beauty of this place is incessant.

Happy days in the snow

The playground with a view

Picnic on the Glenorchy delta

Huddling together for warmth in Queenstown

Indi looking after Eli, carrying him in a backpack while he belts her with a stick. Mush Mush.

We are looking forward to returning home where our car will feel small and our house will feel huge. There is also the 500 or so photos to sort out and get a few posted on Lilly's website.

Thanks to everyone for the messages and well wishes especially as we approach our little girl's anniversary.

August 14th, 2009

New Zealand is just awesome. We are cruising about the South Island in a campervan, stopping in caravan parks and loving every moment. Indi's head is expolding with all the gorgeous places and Eli is just his usual beautiful self... although he did suffer from a severe fever for 3 days, a few days ago. Stay tuned for photos and more news.

August 4th, 2009

We are jet setting at the moment. We had a few days in tropical Queensland, visiting Eli's Uncle daphod who sent his motorbike and both legs under a bus.

Eli enjoyed the water and sunshine.

Tomorrow we are headed for New Zealand for a family holiday of mountains and walks and fjords and glaciers and skiing, trying our best to continue the lessons of our little girl...

Enjoy this moment and live this one life


Clicking Here will show you a flyer for a wonderful fundraising event coming soon. It is organised by Bronte and her family, raising awareness and funds for the cancer centre at Geelong Hospital.

See you there!!

PS Bronte is happy and healthy.

June 26, 2009

All is well with us. Indi had a wonderful birthday with her friends, however no one thought to bring a camera, so you will just have to take us on our word that it was a happy day.

Eli and the ever tolerant kittens are looking after each other.

April 28, 2009

One year old little boy.
Time does indeed fly when all is good.
May you have good health and appiness always .


March 18, 2009

A birthday is an acknowledgement of the day that someone was born.
On March 18, 2003, Kahlilla entered this world and the world is now a far better place because of her life, laughter and love
Please be joyful that our Lilly was born and that we were all honoured to share in her wonderful life in some way.

March 15

Here we are once again, with an infrequent but happy update.

Life has been kind to us.

Indi is well and gorgeous and doing brilliantly at school.

Eli is bursting with health and happiness and is crawling everywhere, being an adorable rascal with a smile that rarely fades.

Kahlilla is still absolutely loved as her beautiful soul continues to love us.

Mum and Eli and Colin's cousin Cath (from Garstang, England)

Father and Son

Indigo at the most exciting rocky beach in the world

Eli and Colin's cousin Cath's husband, David (from Garstang, England)

Grand Poppy and Grandson (the most exciting rocky beach in the world in the background)

March 1, 2009

I had the most wonderful birthday. At Lilly's funeral, we showed some pictures and videos of Kahlilla dancing and it was all clipped together with a Jackson Browne song in the background.

The song is called FOR A DANCER, and it is my favourite. Please watch and hear this song by Clicking Here

For my birthday, Nellie bought me 2 tickets to see Jackson Browne in concert and it was just brilliant. Toward the end of the show, many people were calling out requests and Jackson apologised saying that he already has a request.

He said "A lady sent me a letter asking for this song, and I was deeply moved by her story"

He then played ... FOR A DANCER

Nell wrote that letter and I could not wish for a more joyful present.

Nell and I hugged and smiled and danced and cried and remembered our Kahlilla dancing her sorrow away.

December 30, 2008

Here is song that Kahlilla first heard as we drove along the beach toward Eli Creek on Fraser Island a few years ago.

There are also various versions of this song on YouTube. You can see one of them by Clicking Here

MESSAGES by Xavier Rudd

So now come sit down
Will you talk with me now

Let me see through your eyes
Where there is so much light

We are biding our time
For these myths to unwind
For these changes we will confront

So please beware
With every place that you head

Look to your soul
For these things that you know

For the trees that we see
Cannot forever breathe
With the changes they will confront

You know some people they just won't understand
no they just won't understand these things

Thank you for your message but I don't understand
no I just won't understand these things

Well this sacred land
It has seen many hands

It has wealth and gold
Yet it is fragile and old

And all the greedy souls
Just don't care to know
Of the changes it will confront

So speak out loud
Of the things you are proud

And if you love this coast
Then keep it clean as it evolves

Because the way that it shines
May just dwindle with time
With the changes it will confront

You know some people they just won't understand
no they just won't understand these things

Thank you for your message but I don't understand
no I just won't understand these things

So hold nice and close
The ones who get to your soul

So that when it is cold
You won't feel so alone

'Cause the roads that you take
May just crack and break
With the changes you will confront

With each gift that you share
You may heal and repair

With each choice you make
You may help someone's day

Well I know you are strong
May your journey be long
And now I wish you the best of luck

Well I know you are strong
May your journey be long
And now I wish you the best of luck

You know some people they just won't understand
no they just won't understand these things

Thank you for your message but I don't understand
no I just won't understand these things

This wonderful song brings to life Kahlilla's character in so many ways.

Our Lilly loved the coast and she would always frown and diplay her most fierce cat's bum whenever she saw rubbish littering the beach, and her beautiful innocence would question... "Why do people do that?"

Kahlilla's road cracked and broke but she was never alone.

Her gifts healed people and she chose to be kind, always making someone's day that little bit better.

We have been making the most of each day and keeping pretty happy over all. Eli has wrapped us up in his love and has successfully prevented us from crashing to the ground. He is our gorgeous, happy, little parachute boy.

Eli and his Uncle Craig on Christmas Eve

Eli and his Aunt Clara on Christmas Day

Indi with her Christmas Crystal ball

Eli is worried that his lovely mum has finally gone round the twist

Eli pretends to be asleep, hoping I will stop singing to him

We now have a new kitten and her name is ... Goobin SweetHeart. We often told stories to Lilly about a wonderful girl named Banilla and her 2 kittens, Goobin and Schtubin.

Banilla was really Kahlilla, Goobin was Gypsy and Schtubin was Dennis.

It seemed appropriate to name the new kitty Goobin. We think Lilly would approve.

We will take a photo of her as soon as she stops sprinting about the house. Her and Dennis are almost friends now.

November 10

The Relay for Life was an amazing 24 hours. We were not looking forward to it so much, anticipating many tears and emotional strain, however we were surrounded by our friends and family and the wonderful people of Phillip Island and beyond, and all was indeed grand.

Nell and Aunt Jess made the gorgeous TEAM LILLY banner and many wonderful friends helped to decorate the ceiling of the gazebo with frilly, silky pinks and purples.

The loving ceiling

Our wonderful friends Helen and Bronte carry Lilly's baton during the early hours of the morning. The baton was one of Kahlilla's fairy wands with her da's tied to it

Nellie and Jessie, all dressed up and ready to go

Uncle Craig went around flipping kids upside down in order to get their lunch money. The looney with the plastic butt cheeks is Colin (I am sure Lilly would have loved this sight)

Darling Eli joining Kahlilla's fight - well eating a wristband anyway

The return of the enormous smile

Kahlilla's friends decorated the most beautiful bags with candles inside , so sad that they had to be brown

Team Lilly

November 8th 2008 is the date of this year's Relay For Life at Phillip Island, and we are getting all fired up with TEAM LILLY.

Please have a look at 11th November 2007 to read about Kahlilla at last years Relay for Life.

Anyone can join our team, so if you are interested in a trip to Phillip Island, please Click Here to go to the "Relay for Life" website.

Where it says "Search for a Team" type in LILLY

and follow the instructions.

The plan is for the team to keep a baton moving around the footy oval for 24 hours, so if you want to join in for a while, you can nominate which part of the 24 hours suits you best. There is also some space to set up a tent and camp the night. It is always a fun time with music and activities for the kids and we can devote this year to Kahlilla. We may have a piece of her brown blankie to share around as our baton.

October 19

We are OK and enjoying our beautiful island and our wonderful family and friends.

Indi with her darling little brother.

Eli loving (grabbing) our very patient Dennis.

October 13

Spring is in the air and we are doing our best to make the most of life without our Lilly. Eli is getting a good look at the wonderful beaches and it is good to share these special places with him.

Words cannot describe the cuteness of our boy's wrinkly little bum.

Quickly learning that the sand don't taste too good.

October 9

Our lovely little Gypsy Booshka was hit by a car just near her home.

Another wonderful being that will be missed.. especially by her Dennis.

Eli is just wonderful and going a long way toward filling a huge hole by smiling and laughing and loving us so beautifully. We must not allow him to play on the roads.

October 2

I had a blood test today and as the steel of the needle came into view, I felt the apprehension, the worry, knowing that I was about to experience pain.

Kahlilla had so many blood tests and I thought about what she went through each time.

This kind, gentle little girl facing the steel needle. Asking for the nurse to wait until she was ready, feeling the apprehension, then taking a deep breath Kahlilla would so bravely announce, "OK ... I am ready"

I cried and cried ... the nurse today must have thought I was just a weak man.

We are missing our Lilly so very much.

September 22

When I used to arrive home from work, Kahlilla would scream out "Daddy!" and leap to her feet, running toward me with her adorable smile and gleaming eyes.

I would drop to my knees and Kahlilla would wrap her loving arms around me giving me a soft and yet strong hug.

It was as if she was melting and moulding around you.

I would squeeze her with all my might, then whisper in her ear... "Hi"

And she would whisper in my ear ..."Hi"

Then she would excitedly tell me all about her day.

Such magical memories ... Thanks little girl.

We often sit on the deck of your cubby house in the warm spring sun, thinking of you and how much we would just love you to be here playing and smelling the flowers.

Please click HERE for a tour of Kahlilla's Cubby House.

September 16

What an extraordinary few weeks!!

Lill used to make milky rainbows with a multitude of colours swirling around.

Now there is a multitude of emotions swirling in our hearts and minds.

We have so many delightful memories of Kahlilla, yet the smiles are soon accompanied by tears.

Why does this happen?

The memory is what it is. Life or death does not alter the memory. The memory is unchangeable.

So why the tears? This memory will never happen again whether our little girl is still with us or not.

I guess the tears are flowing because we just miss Kahlilla so very much.

What a hollow gap we have been left with. If only she had been a horrible child!

Then again, had she been horrible , we would not be having the enormous smiles from the wonderful memories.

Bitter sweet indeed.

OK OK ... That's it... I am lost in a teary haze of milky rainbows and am starting to haver.

Sparkly eyes in 2005

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